Pls put yourself

in my shoes. Thanks.

My dog, Happy.

This post will be dedicated to Happy.

Hey Happy, you're lying down on the balcony floor as im typing this. And tears are flowing down my cheeks right now. Im sorry. I love you.

You've been such a good dog. Not barking unlike Kenneth's dog which is just next door. Today you met him, remember? I know you're tired, im sorry for not giving you a good bed last night. Thank you for not even barking cause you couldnt sleep well.
Tonight, i'll stay with you. It might be our last night together. I hope you can find a better owner. I will help you to find one. Dont stay with me cause im not a good owner. I get pissed off so easily when you didnt shit exactly on the newspaper just now although you peed properly on the newspaper.

You're so smart. I really really love you.

I feel so bad. I love my dog, Happy. No one can replace you ok? (: You're my first dog ever. 13 March 2010. I love you. I'll always remember you.

I love you

I dont know if you'll read this. I've a draft for you.

I feel so dead now. I wished i was knocked down by the bus just now. Everything would be over, Everything would be good.

oh well, goodnight.
Thanks Theon. Another sleepless night. Mentally alone but physically with a friend. At least for tonight.

Sleepless nightssssss

Its been long since i've been having sleepless nights. Well, last night was bad. Tonight's gonna be worst.

Well, things have come to this state. Its kind of too late for me to do anything right? I dont know. I dont wanna do anything. Not because of pride.

Sigh, i have so much to say! So much to tell you, so much tears, so many sorrys.

Will they work?
Why dont we have a virtual hug since words cant make things better.

I love the present & the card. I could stare at it all night long.
You know, the way you stapled the sides to decorate it? Its so cute.
The words in it, meant so much although it was just less than 10 words.
The smiley you drew behind, reminds me of you. And me. Thats us.
BABY I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU FOREVER. IM SORRY I DID ALL THOSE.

hotel626

HI hi hi hi hi! IM at baby's house! we just had dinner & i ate so much!!!!!

HAHA had steamboat with his family! it was good. Like the liver, oh ilove the crabstick wow shiok!!! And alot more :D

Got dessert too! Heehee ok so full.

Oh yea, we just played hotel626! OMG SCARY. He kept saying "Its lame, not fun lah blahblah"

Haha ok bye bye (:

Today is a tired day but it ended nicely (:

Top 10 things i shouldnt have done today:
1) Booking a slot for driving at 8am.
2) Worn the peacock tunic out of house.
3) Shouldnt have gone to work (Tired)
4) Shouldnt leave house so late
5) Shouldnt eat wanton mee (my auntie bought)
6) Went earlier since i got key to the shop & ate there
7) Been so slack at work (sell 1 more item to earn $5 more)
8) Bought the blue batwing top
9) Eaten the drumstick from kfc that Jeannie bought
10) Shouldnt have left my house..

Mum picked me up from Clementi station. That made me less tired!!!!!!! If not i'll be sleeping by now.

Omg i found out what is the evil thing that made my nail polish tarnish!!!! Its because of baby's mac keyboard condom!!!!!! Hahahaha finally!!!! I'll elaborate more tmr, too tired to explain. As long as my baby knows what im talking about yea (:

Oh i feel like going online shopping now. heehee since i dont have to wake up early tmr. Omg and yes yes yes! I can meet my baby for dinner tmr i cant wait yayyay!

There's something i cant wait. I wanna go on cruise with baby & his familyl!!!!!!!! But my mum like didnt really give me an answer ): Please man, i really die die want to go cruise with them!!!!!!!!!!

Me: Mummy i got something to discuss with you!

Mum: What

Me: Can i go on cruise with yisong?

Mum: -straightaway- No.

Me: Huh his parents also going you know

Mum: No.

Me: WHYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Mummy pls lah pls?

Mum: then why you ask me in the first place? I said no, you still ask...

Me: Hahaha, okay i ask you tmr.

Mum: okay.

Me: ????????????????? -huh face-

That means, tmr got chance leh!!! Ok i be good girl. Ok night. Baby confirm say "whoa, your english ah" but i anyhow type cause i tired. pls understand ok byeee

Happy happy going lucky

i am not sleepy now. but i have to sleep early because i have driving lesson in the morning. i really really really really honestly cant wait for the day when i can drive.

MY TOYOTA COROLLA ALTIS IS WAITING FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just now i watched the channel 8 show. they were helping this ahma. she so poor thing ): like so old and 2 out of her 3 children have mental problem!!!!!!!!!!! What is happening in this world!!!!! And everyone in her family is sick with like mental problem, kidney failure, tumour... wth right omg so poor thing.

to me, my mum & my dad are the most kind people. My dad donates to a lot of charity organisations every year. like omg damn kind!!!!!!!!! and my mum says she wants to call mediacorp to know where the ahma stays so she can buy stuff there for her.

And something disgusting, the ahma has a plastic bag with rice kept for more than 1 year.

aiya i know today i anyhow type cause i very lazy but i felt i should blog!

met Sj today! went to the ice cream shop!!!!!!!!! she so poor thing. arghhhhhhhh. ok. anyway something funny. cause the tables in her shop can spin. so i placed the cup with water on the table &

"Spin spin spin" then i spinned and the cup flew off and the water spilled all over the floor. Poor Sj got to mop it. Hahahahahahahahahhahaha!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh something angry. i bought a dvd from Kelong with all the "bring it on" series. and you know whattttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT CANT BE PLAYED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ): Fuck the malaysian people there selling the dvd. cheat me omg. fuck you. my bf will curse you to hell.

im so angry cause i wanna watch!!!!!!!!!!! Its like myh favourite kind of show!!!!!

illl post up the pictures @ kelong and with baby another day kkkk.

omg nowadays i keep buying clothes. god pls help me. no no baby, pls help me! HAHA ok bye going to call my boss (baby) now bye.

Physically @ Kelong, Mentally in Singapore (:

Tried to upload a picture but i couldnt.

Anyway, i miss Neo yisong!!!!!! ):

Baby pls check your email!! (: Bye bye, i love you.

Okay goodnight guys. Going to sleep now, so damn tired ): Will update about my trip!

Fullllllllll

Hello!! Im at baby's house now (:

We met at town today, caught the movie THE WOLFMAN but we didnt watch more than 15 minutes of it! HAHAHA

It was so scary for me ):
We didnt not watch it cause i was scared but something else! (:

After that, we shopped around! I bought two cute panties from topshop. Heehee and we went to many topshopS to look for my hearts stockings but couldnt find it. Went to FarEast in the end, walked around, tried some shoes!

After all that, we were heading to the airport to send one of his friend off but apparently all of his friends were not going anymore so we headed to Bedok 85!

Bedok 85 is a place like Chomp Chomp & Newton Circus. Its much cheaper though (: Newton Circus is really overpriced. We ta pao Hokkien Mee, Fish Soup & Bah Chor Mee from there & cabbed over to his place! Just ate, so full that explains why the title of this post is "Fulllllllll" Haha! Okay not funny.

So yea im blogging because he said i havent updated for so long & its true!! HAHA, He's watching tv outside cause i told him to. Oh and his dad gave me angbao :D Yay!!!!!

I couldnt say Gong Xi Fa Cai cause daddy just passed away ): Sigh its like a New Year without daddy. Its so boring, usually we'll be going to the He Pan! Haha oh well!!

YAY I cant wait for tmr. Lunch with Uncle Ted then meeting baby again! We're going to shop :D Heehee ok byebye, pictures another day (:

I like & also dislike cny!

I like cny but but but it makes baby & i are so busy we cant meet ):

Met on Saturday night! He came over to give me new year goodies Heeheeeee.
Sigh im so sad cause we cant meet. But its okay! Cause i dont want him to travel all the way to my place just to see me.

He stays at Eunos you know!!! I stay at uh Toh Tuck Road? Thats like damn farrrrrr.

OHHHHHH not to mention, mum saw Baby & I at Sixth ave on Thurs! HAHA Damn funnyyyyy! okay anyway im too lazy to blog. Another day yea with pictures ok byeeee.

Was

I drew.
Like so engrossed.
Really nice picture.
I wanted to give it to you.
I read.
I called.
I thought.
I tore.
I threw.
I cried.
I blogged.
I cried.
I blogged again.
It hurts.
The picture's nice.
My hardwork.
Im sad.
Nobody cares.
It was a gift.
I tore it.
I drew for 3 hours.
Almost completed.
A really nice house.
With you and me.
Now its empty.
Im free.
Not happy.
Makes me hate.
Makes me hurt.
You never know.
How much i've loved you.
How much you meant to me.

Why.

I really feel very very tired.
Did i have to be treated this way?

I sincerely hope that you'll change although that will be none of my business.
Cause your temper, your behaviour is something that is very difficult to keep up with. You know it too. It was hard for you, harder for me.


because you left me all alone.

It was really unfair. I want to take back those moments where i was really nice to you.
Did youeven appreciate me?
Why.

I changed for you. Why.
I can take this alone, i can.

Family is the most important people in our lives.
Its hard for me to trust you againnn.....

First Feb! (: Filled with thoughts.

Hiiiii all (:

Today was a rather good day. Its been tiring & rushing day. Since when wasnt it tiring yea? (: Haha.

Oh not to mention that there has been a major crisis in my rooooom! Omg. There were like huge looking ants in my room. But they werent ants! EEEEEEEEEEEE

I WAS FREAKED OUT!

Like damn scared. The first time i saw them was last night. I saw like two of it on the floor. Judging that my house is opposite a jungle, i thought they came from there. So i killed them & ignored the matter.

However, when i woke up from my sleep this morning, i saw like 7 of it ON my ceiling.

I had difficulties killing those on my ceiling. But its my room, so i did it without anyone's help. As i killed them slowly, i was led to the underneath of my bed.

I lifted my bed curtain & had a shock of my fucked up life.

I was like omgomgomgomgomgomgomg what to do. I killed them slowly. As i pressed the body of that weird unknown insect, i could feel the cracking feeling with a "crssssp" sound.

DAMN DISGUSTED.

I called baby. I called mummy.

Okay end of story. Anyway i went to sch & then rushed off to BBDC. After that, bought a packet of dao gay, went home to cook for my family (:

HAHAHA my mum is telling me about two incident where he saw her son on the bus now. So funny!

Okay yup so fried rice was good. Oh i went home right? When i reached home, i rushed into my room, looked up & saw like 20 plus insects up on my ceiling.

Called mum. Mum & Clement came home. They were like pest control. They immediately went to change, took ladder, cloth, pail with water, baygon & headed into my room. HAHAHA! Damn cool. So i cooked & they were busy with that.

i didnt want my fried rice to be brown! ): HAHAH Oh well.

Anyway i miss Rica a lot a lot. I feel sad leaving her in school today! Saw many people. Hi Zixinnnnn (: I know you love Chemistry lessons!

Mi has been a year of fun but also a year of regret. I guess in life, there's a price to pay for every wrong doing. And nothing is easy. Nothing comes without hardwork.

There's so much i wanna do. So much i want to achieve. So many plans in my head. So many ideas. I just need a step.

Im quite satisfied with my life now. Now that i've quit Mi, i feel happier. Im glad my friends, teachers, people around me are supporting me (: Supporting my new life! At least im working now. I want to help my mum out! I want to pay for the bills. She said "dont need, just save up your money. That was what daddy & I did last time" I was like wow, im so determined to save money now.

Anyway i dont know what colour to get for my car! ): Today Izyan was like saying "PINK" Hahahaha she's damn funny. She's like me, pink & leopard printssss! HAHA I CANT WAIT TO GET MY LICENSEEEEEEEEE!

Okay bye bye. tired. oh i dont dare to enter my room. Im afraid to see the unknown insect. Heehee drinking bird nest again. My mum made bird's nest cause she was bored. HAHA

Saturdays woooo!

Saturday is always a busy day for me man!

Met baby in the morning at his place. then we bused to Coronation to eat!

Reached Bugis then we had $1 ice cream :D It was very very yummy!
Had class then we walked around. He left to meet his friends for 2 parties! WOW

Met mum & Clement. Picked 99 up, went for Curry Fish Head :D

And it was good to end the day with this:
Made by mummy! (:

Friday night out (:

Its always good to spend Fridays with your love!

Heehee i love my boyfriend! (:

Omg this morning, i realised that i have driving lessons to attend. At 8am you know! :O It was only at 11 plus that i discovered that i booked a slot at 8am.
Set alarm at 715. Woke up at 745!

I still remember how i switch my alarm off.
"Wtf, who's alarm!" I thought to myself at 7:15am this morning.

Im such a retard omgggggggg.
OK late, so i hurry rushed out of house. Couldnt get a cab. Waited for 15 minutes before i got one! ): And im at Stage 2 of my practical. My instructor taught me how to park. Wheeeee (:

Happy! I like to park. I get quite frustrated at times when my mum cant park the car. HAHA its my turn soon, Mummy (:

Okay reached home, ate 3 egg tofus & 2 packets of oyster mushroom. The oyster mushroom that i cooked SUCKS big time! ):<
Threw away more than 1 packet.
-HAHA i gave this part a shit colour-

Baby rushed home after his work to shower. And...
He cabbed to my house! (: Heehee.
We went to town after that. So sweet right. Hahaha

The bus stop outside my house, waiting for the stupid 77!

Walked around Ion. Went to 313 for dinner! Ate at Flying Chillis cause i was craving SO BADLY for Mango Sticky Rice. Ahhahaha dont ask me why. It was since my Bangkok trip. Hm maybe because i didnt get to eat it there.

Mango Sticky Rice & Red Ruby! (:

Forgot to take picture of our main course!
Baby had Pineapple rice which sucked.
I had Glass noodle salad which was okay but tooooo spicy!!!
"Flying Chillis" what...



Walk walk walk at 313. Went over to Taka!
Purposely hunted for this Japanese mag @ Kinokuniya just to get the free Marc Jacobs bag but ahhhhhhhh sold out ):
I was so sad. And now im sad again. Oh well! Just my luck.
Sold out islandwide you know :O Sigh!

Bought drinks from Cold Storage. Walked around at the exhibition hall! They were selling all the CNY goodies :D I like to have food testing. Hahaha.

Then took a bus to my house to drink!

Our feet were naked (: HAHA

HAHA (: Nice place, nice ambience, nice people (only baby & i there whatttt).





Drink not nice. Ahahahaaaaa but its okay lah. Half the bottle is in the fridge now.








He sent me home then he cabbed home. He was so sleepy & tired. He sent me all the way back to my house. And accompanied me the whole day. Aww im so touched (: Love you so much!!!
HAHA he's sleeping now! And i should, soon. GOT to play my Millionaire Tycoon.

Haha alright! I'll arrange the photos then off to bed. Goodnight folks! (:

Thursdaysss (:

Today i woke up at like 130? HAHA Was sooooo sleepy ):
Then baby came over so i quickly brushed my teeth!

I cooked like Egg Tofu. I fried it. And its niceeeeee (:
Then i fried the chicken & it failed.
So much smoke filled my entire kitchen ahhahaha.

After a while, we left! Went to meet my mum at Clementi with Clement. HAHA
Clementi & Clement. Okay so nice to type.

Went to Jack's Place for dinner (:

Ice Mango with Strawberry cooler. (okay okay only)

Some Platter.
Onion rings, chicken wings, some crab meat thing & deep fried mushroom!

Clement's Chicken Teriyaki with rice.

Jack's Seafood Spaghetti! (Mine's the best )

Mum's Caeser salad with Grilled Salmon!

Dessert for us all (:

Yup thats all (: I love food but im currently on a diet. So yea. I wanna be skinny! I want SOOOOOOO many clothes! Heehee ok bye (:

TIRING DAY!

WWW.TRACYEINNY.COM.SG

Go & get your new year clothings! (: Or come on down to our shop at 195 Pearls' Hill Terrace! There's still 15% discount (: Dont miss it.

Today, i sold 40 items myself! Cooool? Hahaha
I bought a dress & a tights at the end of the day.
Its retailing at $28 (: Its really nice & comfy.
A little too loose for me though.

Yup! This is the dress i bought. Okay dont know why the picture is so big ):Cant find the picture of the tights. but its snake skinned (:
Its cooool and tight. HAHA tights what..

Pam's & her dad sent me down to the mrt station then i trained to Clementi. Met Kenny there, took his car and they sent me home (: Thanks!!

Oh anyway my boss was damn cute today.
She came late today & when she came in, she said this:

Boss: Someone stole my doggy ):

And on her hand, she held two soft toy doggy! HAHAHAHAHA. Its like, you wont expect that coming out from her. Okay maybe you wont find it funny! Oh well (:


Anyone interested in buying this?
I wanna sell mine at $26 (: This is retailing at $28.
Currently, ALL sold out. This is a very popular item. Backorders will only come in after CNY.
Email me if you wanna get it from me! (:
cocodilechanel@gmail.com

So tired today. Think im going to sleep soon man! Im hungry ): Goodnight.

I miss you (:

Hey baby! I just want to tell you that i really miss you (:

Its like a different kind of feeling this time. Maybe because we havent been spending as much time as before! Hm its a sad feeling.

OK im so happy! You'll be coming over later (: But not staying over. HAHA

Oh! Im working tmr! I hope i wont be working alone. Hm but tmr onwards no more sale!!!
If you want clothes from tracyeinny.com.sg, come down to our shop! Its really gooood :D

HAHA One thing we realised was that, couples who come into our shop have the same reactions! The girls will aim for the racks & the guys will aim for the seats. Hahaha its damn funny.

Reminder to self:
Cut nails
Re paint nails
Touch up toe nails
Pack bags
Choose clothes for tomorrow!!!!! *IMPT*

The other day i took like hours to think. Sigh ): HAHAHA

Target for tomorrow:
I MUSNT BE LATE!

Sunday at Work (:

Helllloooooo (:

First thing:
I WANNA KILL HEIDI! (hahahahaha)

You know why! I went to work one hour early. Mum fetched me to Clementi station at around 1230 to 1240? I was texting Heidi at that time. So she was telling me that work starts at 1 today. So i panicked & cabbed to Pearls' Hill Terrace. I confirmed with her for the 2nd and 3rd time if it starts at 1. She said yes.

But it actually starts at 2.

OMGGGGGGG. So i reached there, waited for Debby (: Waited & waited & waited & waited! HAHAHAHAHA So i text boss, Jeannie.

"Im here already. Heidi told me to come at 1 but there's nobody here"

Her instant reply in less than 10 seconds was "omg"

Her replies are always damn fast but short yet classic. I sat there & fed some mosquitoes but killed one of it :D

Talked to baby on the phone for a while. A lot of indians there! I was scared ):

Was very busy at work today! I love almost ALL the people who shopped there! They're mostly damn pretty. There are a lot of model looking girls. On Thurs, these two models came. They're my boss' friends. Damn pretttttyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!

Today there's this girl, she's also damn pretty! She wore this tracyeinny dress with a Chanel bag for a wedding lunch. She came in a big group after that wedding lunch. She's gorgeous omg. I felt damn happy serving her. Its like a priviledge (:

Today i worked with Deb. She's the photographer's girlfriend! Hahaha i like her tan! (:

Anyway i miss working with Heidi. We'll laugh like nobody's business & sometimes its not funny. And working till late nights is fun cause we'll be so tired & shagged. And we'll talk nonsense!

On Thursday, Lynn, Heidi, Pam's boyfriend & I were in the shop. We were preparing to close & waiting for Pam to come over. Then...

Lynn: Are you Chinese?

Pam's boyfriend & I: ME?

Lynn: No.

Heidi: Me?

Heidi & I: -looks at each other- HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

For no reason. I swear, damn retarded. I dont even know why Heidi said "Me?". She worked there for months already. She knows everyone there. And i dont know why Lynn said No when i said "Me?". I ALSO dont know why Pam's boyfriend was in the conversation. HAHAHA before that we were talking about clothes.

Its fun when you work so hard & forget to eat your meals (: I like that feeling. I had gastric cause i didnt eat my meals properly. Its painful, hate the feeling. But i cant eat. I cant.

Im so sleepy now. Heehee but i wanna stay up! Okay retarded. Im too tired. I'll update another time! Ok Byeeeee (:

More than a year & counting on forever (:

I LOVE

NEO YI SONG!